Is it really only Wednesday?!

So, it's 6am.  And, I'm never up this early.  I woke up at 5am to pee {which isn't all that unusual} but instead of lumbering back to bed and falling asleep for a few more hours, I climbed in and my eyes just wouldn't close.  I laid there for an hour and finally gave up.

So, here I am.

The anticipation of tomorrow is killing me!  I have a to-do list a mile long for today and all I can think about is doing nothing and hoping the hours will just magically tick away unnoticed. 

Thankfully, I have something extra special to look forward to today, too.  It's Taylor's last day of preschool and they have a singing program, a graduation for the Kinders {not Tay, but my niece Holly will be participating} and a pizza party afterward!  She's been practicing her songs for weeks, has her dress all picked out and requested that her hair be curled for her big day. :)  I'm sure I'll shed a few tears...pretty much everything gets me going these days...but really, I'm just so proud of the little girl that she is.  She's so loving.  She has the biggest heart {and gets her feelings hurt so easily because of it}.  Her smile has always been contagious and she's just a joy to be around.

I'm hoping she enjoys this day as much as I do.  I'm actually quite happy it's worked out this way...that we have one last extra special day celebrating just her before her baby brother's born.  We're even having pancakes for dinner tonight...her favorite! :)

Now, about tomorrow.  Since I'm already feeling the anxious excitement of tomorrow, I have no doubt that I'll be getting little-to-no sleep tonight either.  {So, be prepared...you may be seeing another blog post from the wee hours of the morning tomorrow!}  Honestly, I'm not really sure what it is that's keeping me up.  I feel ready.  I'm not nervous about the surgery or the recovery...I kinda feel like I know what to expect this time.  I think it's just pure excitement!  But, more than that...I'm waiting for the moment when I can finally breathe a sigh of relief.  I need to hold my baby.  It may sound crazy, being 9 months pregnant and all, but there's still a small part of me that won't really believe this is happening until it's happened, and he's here, and he's healthy.  I really think that along with the overwhelming joy that comes from seeing and holding your baby for the very first time, I will also feel the relief that I've been waiting for.  And, of course, I'm really looking forward to seeing that sweet little face, too. :)

I'm also so excited for Taylor!  She's been waiting so long for a baby brother or sister and I can. not. wait to see her face when she sees him and holds him for the first time.  In fact, I've requested that she not see him until I'm out of surgery and into recovery so I can be there for that once-in-a-lifetime moment for her {and me}.  After Taylor was born, they took her from the OR into the nursery where Matt got to hold her, help bathe her, weight her and get her all cleaned up.  Then my family got to come in and see her for the first time, and I missed all of it.  I missed everything!  Thank God Matt was a rock star with the camera and literally took over 200 pictures in the time that I was left to be put back together and cleaned up before going to recovery.  Don't get me wrong, I'm glad he was there with her to experience all that...and it had been such a long night/day/night that at that point I didn't really care anyway...I wasn't thinking all that clearly.  This time though, I wanna be there.  I wanna see her face light up when she sees him for the first time.  And the smile on her face when she gets to hold him...I can already imagine it.  And it already brings tears to my eyes.  There's no chance I'll be missing that.♥

A three-day-stay is the norm after a c-section, so I'm assuming we'll be in the hospital until Sunday morning, as long as both baby and I are doing well.  We'll be at St. Peter's in Olympia so, family and friends, feel free to call or stop by!  So many of you have been so supportive on this crazy journey we've been on for the last 4 years, and I know you are just as thrilled as we are that this little baby is joining our family!  So, please...don't feel like you're intruding!  We want to share this little bundle of joy with all of you! :)

Well, lots to do today, so I better get to it!  I'm going to try and wear myself out today so I can try to get a good night's sleep tonight, if that's even possible!  Come tonight though, when everything is settled for the evening, I have a feeling we'll be snuggled on the couch with a bowl of popcorn, savoring every last second of our life as we know it... 

Because, come tomorrow...we will be a family of 4! :)

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